A few weeks ago I went in search of cabbage.
Not just any cabbage, but those big flat headed ones
suitable for making cabbage rolls.
It was a dry run, all they had was these small, puny,
down right pitiful little heads.
I came home empty handed and decided to wait.
Waiting paid off.
I stopped 2 days ago and look what I found,
these huge heads, just perfect for my recipe.
I was really excited when I saw them.
The girl who sold them asked what I was
gonna do with them. When I said cabbage rolls she
said I was making her hungry, lol.
Just to give you an idea of their size I put a
soup can beside them.
I had to discard several of the outer leaves.
I made a crock pot full and divided them up
for freezing. This recipe, found here
is one of the best cabbage roll recipes I have
found. I normally double the filling and triple or
quadruple the sauce mix that is pour
over the rolls. I bought 3 heads of cabbage to
make sure I would get plenty of large outer
leaves. What was left of the heads I chopped,
blanched, then froze for soups this winter.
On the web site they have the nutritional
values at the end of the recipe. You can
always substitute ground turkey, cut back on the
salt or do what you must to modify to your
dietary restrictions. I personally don't change a
thing. I often make bigger batches and cook
the meat mixture in a skillet then freeze that
as well. It can be used later for more rolls and
you save a lot of fuss having it made ahead
of time. This is a 4 and a 1/2 star recipe.
I made 21, put 4 to a freezer container,
label and freeze. I had 5 containers of 4 rolls.
Gee, I wonder what happened to the extra
(someone had to taste test them, yummy!)
Now if you don't want to read my depressing
news then hop, skip or jump outta here.
It has been a very busy 2 weeks.
My husband was admitted to the hospital and
stayed 6 days. They had to put an emergency
port in his neck for dialysis. Since then he has
been to surgery 2 times, to remove the first port,
insert another in his chest and again another
port in his abdomen. The last one will be for
home dialysis. There was a trip to the
ER one evening for excessive bleeding, 3 hours
spent waiting and an ER doc that was nice,
but did virtually nothing. At 11pm we came home,
dragging butt only to get up at 4:30am with more
blood and having to be at his dialysis by 6:30am.
Right now we travel 3 days a week,
over an hour away for him to have dialysis.
The abdominal port can not be used for 2-3 weeks.
He has yet to see his oncologist and then there will
be more traveling for chemo.
Right now life as we once knew it is no more.
Our time is consumed with travel to doctor and
hospital. I have had to put babysitting for
my sweet grandson on hold.
We waited a long time for that child.
I have to guilt myself into not feeling sorry for our
situation. I tell myself that there are others who are
going through this very same thing.
Others who are worse off. I tell myself that I am
not the one with cancer and I should not be angry.
Some people do not realize that when cancer
moves in it effects the entire family. I am right there
too, going to every appointment,
and have been since day 1.
It has been hard to not be angry with the
professionals whose mercy you find yourself at.
They don't get in any hurry, and you spend too much
time with thoughts running through your head.
And then you look back and wonder if you had
made different choices would things have been better.
I just wanted to let all my faithful
followers know that I have not forgotten you,
nor have I forgotten all your kind thoughts
and words that are left in the comments.
I have buzzed in and
out of here during the past 2 weeks.
It is a pleasant break from my worries and
concerns. I can not tell you how good it feels to
be able to escape to this place,
if even for just a few minutes.
I keep telling myself God is in control.
In my mind's eye I keep seeing that tiny mustard seed.