I need to vent, so please excuse me for my ranting and raving. I just need to let off some steam. It really doesn't matter if any one reads this posting. I just need to get some thoughts off of my chest. It was a very busy Thursday. We were up at 4:30am and on the road by 5:30am.........GPS (a gift, thank you Mike) was set for our trip to Ann Arbor Michigan to go to the VA Hospital. Seems like we do a lot of traveling to hospitals. Last week it was to Cleveland Clinic. This trip on Thursday has me in a tizzy.....and I am about ready to just throw up my hands with all of these doctors. They all have their own idea on what to do and the VA being the Government (aren't we the government?) says they will not let the oncologist, who has taken care of my husband since January, manage the maintenance drug that he suggested, if we have come to them to pay for that $90,000+ drug......, my overall thoughts on this are #1. You are all doctors, no matter who you work for, government or private...."first do no harm" comes to mind, #2. When a patient has an incurable disease work together to help save their life or at least prolong it as long as possible so there is still dignity and quality of life. #3. Did you not all attend medical school and no matter where it was, you all had to take the same State Boards to pass, my belief is that your goal or Mission was that you wanted to keep and make people well. #4. Stop suggesting all these different trial treatments, agree on the one that would be the best, or at least the one you think would be best. My husband is NOT your experiment. #5. Having a diagnosis of cancer is depressing enough, don't complicate things by stressing the patient (and family) out with things that are out of our control. #6. Accept the fact that even a millionaire can not afford the cost of some of the drugs that you prescribe, but don't push us in a corner with threats that we can't have the drug if "you" aren't the doctor prescribing it............and so you have it............needless to say my car was all a buzz the entire hour and a half getting back home......the 206 mile round trip.......I have only touched the tip of the ice burg on what all was said to us. I could write a book!